(Me before this blog. From 2007 – 2010.)
I’ve mentioned the origin of RebeccaKelsey.com multiple times. The quick response is I became obsessed with beauty gurus and made my own channel. After awhile I realized I had much more to say so I started my blog. End of story.
Except not really.
I made my first blog when I was a freshman in high school, circa 2005. Little 15 year old me felt very dramatic and misunderstood. I just wanted to be understood. I needed to be heard.
Social media wasn’t big yet (I didn’t know anything about Facebook), so I created a LiveJournal. Do you remember LiveJournal? It was a huge thing.
On my LiveJournal I would say absolutely anything and everything that came to my mind. Even the more profane things like how awkward it was when my Mom had “the talk” with me when I started dating Chris. Nothing was off limits. I didn’t even think about what would happen if my parents read my LiveJournal. I didn’t understand that what you say on the internet is out there for everyone to see, not just my friends. I deleted this online journal after a few months.
Then, I created a different LiveJournal. One that I kept a secret. Sort of. I liked the idea of my thoughts being out in the open so I didn’t make my journal private. Instead I followed all of my friends journals (similarly to how you can follow this blog on BlogLovin) but I didn’t tell them I made another blog or that I had followed them. That didn’t work though. Of course they still figured out it was me. So I deleted that blog too.
Now onto my third LiveJournal blog in three years. This one actually still exists (I wouldn’t dare post the URL now). I don’t use it anymore but I read it every so often to remember how far I’ve come. I used that blog on and off for three years. This time though I didn’t follow my friends. I really kept it personal that time.
But, I wanted a proper blog. I had started following Really, Are You Serious? (she designed the picture above) in 2009 and really liked the idea of sharing my thoughts with the world. This time I wanted to share my thoughts on music, art, anything I felt like rather than my day to day life. Thus, Miss Random Bliss was born. The writing and formatting of that blog was horrible. I was so indecisive. This blog is now set to private.
So, I’ve had four blogs before RebeccaKelsey.com. This isn’t even including my old poetry website and my photography site.
Honestly though, it feels like I’ve had even more then four. RebeccaKelsey.com has gone through so many transformations until it has become what it is today. I really underestimated how long it would take to find my voice.
I don’t know if I’ve really learned to keep things to myself. Especially with The Rebecca and Chris Show. My life is still pretty much an open book. There are a few exceptions though. Now, I understand that anyone can read my blog. I make sure to remember that there is a line I shouldn’t cross. There are some things I need to keep to myself. Whatever you post on the internet is out there, now more so than ever with this high-tech social media driven world.
So why did I continue blogging? Why did I attempt it so many times?
I want to be understood. Even now.